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Ronan Hale, 59, retired Puget Sound senior ferry master, leaned his hip against the dented metal beer cooler at the edge of the 4th of July community potluck, sweat beading at his hairline under a frayed Mariners cap. He’d avoided every class reunion for 41 years, but his old shipmate had begged him to come, said the grilled brats were worth the awkward small talk with people he hadn’t seen since the Ford administration. His left hand curled around a sweating can of Rainier, the scar across his wrist from a 1998 ferry line winch accident catching the late afternoon sun.

The air reeked of charcoal, burnt hot dogs, and the sweet tang of someone’s homemade lemonade. Kids screamed chasing each other across the grass, a cover band down the field fumbled through a John Mellencamp track, and Ronan was half considering ditching early to go home to his rescue hound when a woman stepped up next to him, reaching past his arm for a black cherry seltzer in the cooler. Their knuckles brushed, and Ronan froze. Hers were calloused, slightly sticky with what smelled like clover honey, warm even through the cold condensation on the can she grabbed.

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He looked up. She was 58, sun-kissed, silver streaks woven through her dark braid, work boots scuffed with mud peeking out under a flowy yellow sundress. She squinted at him, then huffed a laugh he’d recognize in a hurricane. “Ronan Hale. I’d know that dumb Mariners cap and that winch scar anywhere. You still bailing on plans without a heads up?”

It was Elara Mendez, the girl he’d stood up for senior prom. His throat went dry. He’d replayed that night a thousand times, guilt coiling tight in his chest every time: his mom’s MS meds had been three months behind, his coworker had totaled his truck on the way to the dock, and he’d had no way to reach Elara, no cell phone, no address for her new apartment after her parents’ divorce. He’d figured she’d written him off as a deadbeat, and he’d never had the guts to correct her.

“I didn’t bail,” he said, voice rougher than he meant it to be. He set his beer down on the cooler edge, suddenly hyper aware of how close they were standing, shoulders almost touching, no one else lingering near the cooler to interrupt. “My mom’s meds were past due. I had to pull a double shift on the ferry. I didn’t have your number to call.”

Elara blinked, the teasing smirk slipping off her face. She leaned against the cooler next to him, her shoulder pressing firm against his bicep, and he didn’t move away. “I thought you just didn’t want to go with me,” she said, quiet enough that the band’s noise almost swallowed the words. “I went with your friend Jake. Married him. Stayed married 35 years until he dropped dead of a heart attack three years ago. I kept the corsage I bought for prom in my yearbook the whole time. Figured it was the closest I’d get to an apology.”

Ronan’s chest ached. He fumbled in the front pocket of his work jeans, pulling out a faded, creased paper prom ticket stub, edges frayed from 41 years tucked in every wallet he’d ever owned. He held it out to her, and her fingers brushed his when she took it. “I kept the ticket,” he said. “Figured I’d use it eventually.”

She laughed, a wet, bright sound, and swatted his arm playfully. They spent the next hour leaning against that cooler, catching up: she ran a small honey farm 20 minutes outside town, had three grandkids, hated olives and loved bad 80s action movies, same as him. He told her about his retirement, his rescue hound named Buoy, the small cabin he owned on the water that looked out over the ferry route he’d worked for 40 years. The sun dipped below the tree line, fireflies started blinking in the grass at their feet, and the first distant boom of the fireworks test run rumbled through the air.

“C’mon,” Elara said, tucking the prom ticket stub into the pocket of her sundress. She nodded toward the old wooden pier sticking out over the sound a quarter mile away. “I don’t feel like watching fireworks with a bunch of people who still ask if I’m still married to Jake.”

Ronan grabbed his beer, followed her across the grass, gravel crunching under their boots as they walked down the pier path. The wood under their feet was weathered, splintered, same as it was when they were 17, sneaking out here after football games to share a six pack. She leaned against the rail at the end, her hip pressed to his, and he could smell the honey on her skin, the citrus of her lip balm, the salt of the sound in the air. He reached out, brushed a stray strand of hair that had come loose from her braid off her face, his thumb brushing the soft skin of her cheek. She didn’t flinch, didn’t pull away, just looked up at him, eyes bright in the pink and orange of the sunset.

“You owe me a corsage,” she said, grinning. “And a dance. And you’re buying pie at the old diner on 12th after the fireworks. The one with the cherry pie that’s way too sweet.”

Ronan grinned, tucked his hand into hers, her calloused fingers fitting perfectly against his. The first firework exploded overhead, painting the sky bright red, casting gold over the water, and Elara leaned her head against his shoulder. He lifted their intertwined hands to press a light kiss to the back of hers, already mapping the route to the flower shop downtown in his head, where he planned to pick up the biggest clover corsage he could find the next morning.