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Rafe Marquez, 62, has made a quiet life for himself as a vintage outboard motor restorer in the tiny coastal Oregon town he moved to seven years prior, right after his wife lost her two-year fight with lung cancer. His biggest flaw is how hard he works to keep everyone at arm’s length—gruff one-word answers, intentional grease-stained coveralls at all community events, a habit of leaving social gatherings 20 minutes after he shows up just to avoid small talk. He only agreed to come to the fire department chili cookoff because his buddy who runs the local bait shop owed him a case of good bourbon, and the bet was if Rafe showed up for an hour, the bourbon was his.

He’s leaning against a tent pole halfway through the hour, holding a bowl of chili so spicy his eyes are watering, when he spots Lila Hale across the crowd. She’s the 48-year-old town librarian, married to the 63-year-old local pastor, the kind of woman everyone in town calls “sweet” and “proper,” the one who organizes the Easter egg hunt and wears long linen dresses even when summer humidity hits 90 percent. She’s holding a plastic cup of sweet tea, laughing so hard at a bad joke the county commissioner just told that her shoulders shake, and Rafe can’t look away even though he’s spent 18 months intentionally avoiding her—small town gossip travels faster than coastal wind, and he doesn’t need anyone assuming he’s messing with the preacher’s wife.

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She spots him before he can duck out. She walks over, bare legs brushing against the folding chairs lined up along the tent edge, and stops so close he can smell jasmine hand lotion over the faint smoky scent of the cookoff grills. Her elbow brushes his Carhartt sleeve when she gestures at the bowl in his hand. “That’s the fire chief’s chili, right? I made the mistake of eating a spoonful earlier. I drank three glasses of tea to get the burn out of my throat.” Her voice is lower than he expected, warmer, no trace of the prim lilt he’s heard at town hall meetings. She twists the plain gold wedding band on her left finger like it’s digging into her skin, and he notices her nails are chipped, like she’s been working on something with her hands, not stamping library books.

She says she has a 1968 Johnson outboard her dad left her, the one she keeps at her family’s lake cabin an hour inland, and no one in town will touch it because it’s too old. Rafe’s first instinct is to say he’s booked solid for a month, turn her down, go back to his quiet garage and old baseball games on the radio and no drama. But she leans in a little more, her shoulder almost touching his, and he can see gold flecks in her hazel eyes he never noticed from across the library. “I’ll pay double. And I’ll bring those double chocolate chip cookies everyone raves about, the ones I only make for the library bake sale.” He can feel the heat off her skin, hear the faint catch in her breath like she’s nervous he’ll say no, and for the first time in seven years, he doesn’t care what the gossips will say when they see them standing this close. “Drop it off after 6 tomorrow,” he says. “Library closes at 5, right? Give me time to wrap up the Evinrude I’m working on.”

She shows up at his garage the next evening without the motor. She’s wearing cutoff jeans and a faded Fleetwood Mac t-shirt instead of the linen dress, no makeup, holding a crinkling paper bag of cookies. The garage door is half pulled down, so no one driving by can see inside, and she locks the side door behind her when she walks in. “My husband’s on a church retreat all weekend,” she says, setting the bag on his workbench, her hand brushing his when she pushes it across the wood. “I didn’t bring the motor. I just wanted an excuse to talk to you. I’ve seen you working on those motors in your driveway half the weekends. I rebuild small engines myself, but my husband says it’s unladylike, says I should stick to library events and potlucks.”

Rafe doesn’t say anything for a second. He reaches out, brushes a strand of windblown hair off her forehead, his calloused fingers grazing her cheek, and she doesn’t pull away. He can hear crickets chirping in the brush outside, the distant low crash of waves hitting the shore a half mile away, the quiet hum of the mini fridge he keeps stocked with beer in the corner. She leans in first, kisses him slow, tastes like peppermint and sweet tea, and for a second he’s so shocked he freezes before he kisses her back, his hand resting light on her hip.

They don’t make any dramatic promises that night. They sit on his workbench for an hour, eating cookies, talking about old outboards, about how much they both hate the town’s mandatory monthly potlucks, about how she’s been thinking about leaving her husband for six months but didn’t have the nerve to make a move. He agrees to meet her at the lake cabin next weekend, when her husband is visiting his sister in Idaho, to tear down that 1968 Johnson together. She leaves right as the sun dips below the treeline, waving at him from her beat-up Subaru, and he stands in the open garage doorway holding the last half of a chocolate chip cookie, watching her taillights disappear down the dirt road. He pops the last bite of cookie in his mouth, turns off the shop lights, and locks the door behind him.