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Manny Ruiz, 58, has restored 72 vintage campers in the 12 years since his wife left him for a 28-year-old solar panel sales rep, and he’ll tell anyone who asks that he likes the quiet of his workshop better than any dinner date or small talk gathering. He’s got grease permanently crusted under the nails of his right hand, a scar across his left bicep from a 1974 Airstream shell that slipped off its jack, and a rule against staying at town events longer than 45 minutes, tops. The summer food truck rally is the only exception he makes every year, if only for the hickory-smoked brisket from the Texas-style trailer that drives up from Eugene once a season.

The line stretches 15 people deep when he shows up, 92 degrees out, sweat sticking his faded Carhartt shirt to his shoulders, the distant thud of cornhole bags and high-pitched screams of kids chasing each other with snow cones drifting over the crowd. He’s half debating bailing and heating up a frozen burrito at home when someone slams into his back hard enough that he stumbles forward half a step. He turns around ready to snap, and the words die in his throat.

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It’s Lila Hale. He’d recognize her even if she wasn’t wearing the same silver hoop earrings she had on the day he showed up to parent-teacher conferences 14 years prior, panicking because his son Jake was failing Spanish and refusing to study. Back then she’d been all sharp blazers, hair pulled so tight into a bun he swore her forehead had to hurt, no-nonsense tone that made even grown men squirm. Now she’s in cutoff denim shorts that show the faint scar on her left knee, a white linen button down tied at the waist, sun streaks running through her brown hair, freckles dusted across her nose. A dollop of blue raspberry snow cone syrup sits on her lower lip, bright as a neon sign. She’s holding a half-melted snow cone in one hand, the other pressed to his forearm to steady herself, and he can feel the cold of the cup seep through her palm into his skin, sharp and sudden. She smells like coconut sunscreen and lime seltzer.

“Sorry, sorry,” she says, grinning, stepping back just far enough that her hand drops from his arm. “Kid on a scooter came out of nowhere, I didn’t see you standing there. I swear this whole town turns into a chaos factory once the temperature hits 90.” She blinks then, tilts her head, and recognition flashes across her face. “Wait a second. Manny? Jake’s dad? The guy who brought homemade pork tamales to that parent-teacher conference when you thought I’d go easier on him if I was full?”

He laughs, surprised she remembers. “Guilty. Thought it was worth a shot. You gave him a C minus anyway, if I recall.”

“Because he didn’t know the difference between preterite and imperfect tense, not because I don’t love tamales,” she says, leaning in a little when she talks, close enough that he can see the gold flecks in her green eyes, the tiny laugh lines fanning out at the corners. Her shoulder brushes his every time someone squeezes past the narrow line, warm through the thin fabric of his shirt. He feels off balance, like he’s standing on a wobbly ladder, half his brain still stuck on the memory of her scolding him for letting Jake skip study hall to go skateboarding, the other half hyper-aware of the way her sun-warmed skin presses against his, the sound of her laugh when he tells her about the client who demanded velvet wallpaper and a disco ball in the bathroom of his 1968 Volkswagen bus.

Their order numbers get called at the exact same time, both of them reaching for the paper trays on the counter at the same time, their knuckles brushing. This time neither of them pulls away immediately, holding the contact for two, three heartbeats, her eyes locked on his. “I was supposed to sit with the other retired teachers over by the beer tent,” she says, nodding toward a group of women in linen pants waving at her from across the field. “But I don’t really feel like listening to them complain about how kids these days don’t read books. You got a spot to eat this?”

He hesitates for half a second, every instinct screaming to make an excuse, to say he’s got work to get back to, to go home to his empty house and eat alone like he always does. Then he looks at her, at the snow cone syrup still glistening on her lip, the way she’s biting back a smile like she knows exactly what he’s thinking. “I got a beat-up folding chair in the back of my truck,” he says, nodding toward the oak tree at the edge of the field, half shaded, half in sun. “It’s under the tree, a hundred feet from the porta-potties. Fancy as it gets around here.”

She grins, grabs her soda from the counter, and gestures for him to lead the way. He pulls the folding chair out for her, perches on the tailgate of his beat-up Ford F-150, the brisket juicy enough that it runs down his wrist when he takes the first bite. She hands him a napkin a beat before he can ask for it, her fingers brushing his wrist when she passes it over, and he notices the blue syrup is gone from her lip, wiped away sometime between the line and the truck. He asks her if she wants to come by his workshop next week, check out the VW bus before he delivers it to Portland, and she says yes immediately, pulling out her phone and handing it to him to type in his number. He adds a tamale emoji next to his name when he’s done, and she laughs when she sees it, tapping the side of his knee with her free hand. “I’m gonna hold you to making those tamales for me, you know. I’ve been thinking about them for 14 years.”

The sun dips low over the oak tree, painting the sky soft pink and orange, the crowd noise fading a little as people start packing up to leave. He takes a sip of his warm beer, looks over at her, sauce on the corner of her mouth, laughing at a story he’s telling about a camper that came in with a family of raccoons living in the ceiling, and for the first time in 12 years, he doesn’t feel the urge to check his watch and make an excuse to leave early.