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Raj Patel, 53, has grease permanently crusted under the edges of his fingernails and a workshop full of half-restored vintage campers that keep him busy enough he never has to make small talk if he doesn’t want to. Four years after his wife Elara died of breast cancer, he still turns down every invitation to local cookouts, farmers markets, the summer food truck rally he used to help her run. His old fishing buddy Mike showed up at his shop at 5 p.m. that Friday, tossed him a cold IPA, and refused to leave until Raj agreed to come, so he’s standing off by the chain link fence now, plastic cup sweating in his hand, watching kids chase each other with cotton candy stuck to their cheeks, pretending he’s not having a halfway decent time.

The band down the block starts playing a worn 90s country cover he and Elara used to dance to in the kitchen, and he’s half ready to leave when the smell hits him: warm baked peaches, cinnamon, burnt sugar, so sharp it makes his mouth water. He follows the scent to a bright orange food truck parked by the porta-potties, hand-painted sign reading Marnie’s Cobbler Co strung above the window, and the woman leaning out to hand a customer their order freezes when she sees him. She’s got dark curly hair pulled back in a bandana, a streak of silver running from her temple down to her jaw, flour dusted on the shoulder of her denim apron, a tiny peach tattoo curling around her left wrist. He recognizes her immediately: Marnie Carter, who lived two streets over from him 10 years back, who he’d helped jump her beat-up Ford F-150 three times in one winter before she moved to Portland to open a bakery.

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She calls his name over the noise of the band, waving him over, and he walks toward her like his feet have a mind of their own. When she hands him a free sample of peach cobbler in a tiny paper cup, their fingers brush, and he feels the rough callus on her thumb from years of rolling dough, warm through the wax paper lining. The band gets louder, so she leans over the edge of the truck counter to talk, her shoulder brushing his bicep, and he can smell vanilla extract and coconut shampoo mixing with the sweet scent of the cobbler in his hand. He’s torn so sharp it almost aches: half of him is screaming that this is wrong, that enjoying talking to a woman who isn’t Elara is a betrayal, the other half is buzzing like the battery of a camper that just turned over for the first time in 20 years, bright and hot and alive.

She tells him she moved back to town two weeks prior, bought a little cottage on the edge of the national forest, wants to open a permanent bake shop and use a beat-up 1968 Scotty camper she bought at an auction as a pop-up stand for local events. She asks if he knows anyone who can restore it, and he almost says no, almost makes an excuse about being booked six months out, but then she tilts her head and smiles, a crinkle digging into the corner of her eye, and he tells her he can fit her in first thing next week.

She shows up at his workshop Wednesday afternoon, holding a whole peach cobbler still warm in a glass dish, the camper paperwork tucked under her other arm. They walk out to the back lot to look at the Scotty, which she had towed over the day before, and she kneels down to run her hand along the dented aluminum panel on the passenger side, her t-shirt riding up just enough to show a sliver of sun-tanned skin at the base of her spine. He’s standing right behind her, close enough he can feel the heat coming off her body, and she turns around fast, almost bumping her shoulder into his chest. They hold eye contact for three full seconds, neither of them stepping back, the distant hum of his air compressor the only sound in the lot.

He admits he almost didn’t show up to the rally, that he’d spent four years convinced he wasn’t allowed to have fun anymore, not without Elara. She nods, says she gets it, that after her ex-husband left her for a woman 17 years younger three years prior, she’d gone a full 18 months without even letting a stranger buy her a coffee. She reaches up, brushes a fleck of sawdust off his cheek, her palm lingering for a beat against the rough stubble along his jaw.

They make plans for her to stop by every Saturday to check on the camper’s progress, her bringing a new baked good each time, no charge. He walks her to her truck when she’s ready to leave, and she pauses with her hand on the driver’s side door handle, leans in, and kisses him soft on the corner of his mouth, tasting like cinnamon and mint, before she climbs in and pulls out of the driveway. He stands there for a full minute after she’s gone, the leftover cobbler still warm in his hand, and he lifts his thumb to brush the spot where her lips touched his skin, a small, unplanned smile tugging at the corner of his mouth.